Blessings

Yesterday was a rough day.  But amongst the weeds I found the flowers...I found hope.  I will tell you about the rough part first.  It was Sunday and since it is so difficult for me to attend services I have part of Sunday school Skyped and then the Sacrament is brought to me.  Usually it's a nice visit but yesterday I wanted them in and out, but instead, it was a sweet new family that recently moved into our church from our home town!  Of course it was great talking to them but I was fading faster than Bernie in Weekend at Bernie's!  Including the glasses!  Lol.

Following our visit, I tried to get some sleep.  Hard to do when your head feels like the detonator just went off and your head is held together by a spiderweb. Not to mention the nausea, after so long it gets painful.  For some reason the medical marijuana was not helping as it usually does.  At times like this I like to do meditation or guided imagery so I listened did.  It didn't work.  Sure it relaxed me but no sleep.

I requested a health blessing, which is something you can do in my church. I'm LDS.  My home teacher and Bishop came over (I had requested this previously) and this is what I was told: I would be blessed with sleep, courage, I need to work with my family any way possible and I will be a support unto others.  My point is I know I have a trial to go through.  I have something to learn and work to do.  Work with my family, and work with others.  I need courage to overcome the pain and the depression that comes along with the pain...and it comes!  The words that flowed out of the Bishops's mouth were incredible.  He knows me but he does not KNOW me like the words that I heard.  Only one person does and that's why I believe.  That is why I can smile through this.  I have hope, hope that this will end, hope for the resurrection, hope that I have somebody listening to me and it gives me solace to know it's not just  anyone it's my Heavenly Father by my side throughout and he KNOWS me.  Matt 10: 29-31